in the last twenty years
my dad died of terminal cancer
asking me to contact Dr. Kevorkian (assisted life termination)
the pain was so unbearable towards the end
thankfully, he transitioned one week later
the youngest committed suicide
after a long battle with drugs and alcohol
she bled to death in my mother’s arms
one sister developed a terrible disease
with no known cause and no known cure
suffered for two years and then passed
my ex-partner died in a tragic fire
because hoarding took over her life
luckily, I moved out or I wouldn’t be here now
one brother is down for over 5 years now
unable to work with major depression
one sister took an apparent overdose
attempted suicide but failed
was in a semi-vegetative state for two years
until her husband pulled the feeding tube
without even notifying our family
two weeks after that failed suicide attempt
by our sister – our mother had a massive stroke
paralyzed with no use of legs and little use of right arm
speech impacted but she lives on four years later
requiring round-the-clock care from my sister
so when people ask me why I’m depressed
normally I just say ‘born this way’…
I do not fear death nor do I fear evil doers.
I have been protected by an unseen force all my life,
and those who attempt me harm – see quick retribution
from the Cosmos. My heart is shattered and nothing
will ever fix it – not all the money in this world,
or all the power in this world. Sadness has been
my life long companion. Nothing really matters to me
now for myself – my only concern is helping my family
for as long as I can. Only Cosmos will make any dent
in the devastation that has occurred in my family,
and in my heart. There are no words or phrases that
can describe what this is like when you are a super-sensitive
soul, and that’s just the way life and karma goes…
Grinch who stole X-mas
caution:rant ahead 🙂
poets must be the most depressing people in the world
yeah, I’m sure it’s simply a fact
we should have signs that say
caution: hide the rope and rafters before you read
which is normally the reason I do not read
the bulk of stuff in the poetry section
people think they had a bad day
because someone gave them a dirty look or frown
they lost a glue-on-nail on a door frame
their dog chewed up their favorite selfie
they got a speeding ticket for going 35 miles above the posted limit
then there are the clever ones
who make up tales that are complete fiction
which puts them in the pathetic category in my book
all to solicit sympathy or attention from anyone
when their life is really nothing like this
I don’t know how many times that I’ve commented
on such tales only to be told it was creative writing
without any shred of truth to the whole story
you think to yourself – is there any truth on the Net?
which is why I don’t believe anyone who panhandles
the GoFundMe slackers, too lazy to work really amaze me
does that really work for you, and are people so stupid?
hey good for you and good luck getting ahead in life
when you reach a million dollars – let us all know
we’ll add you to the ‘millionaire sucker’s club’
and what’s with these people who want to be seen naked?
what makes you think that we want to see your naked body?
where were you raised in a whore house? or a crack house?
the finger flippers – yeah hell freak everybody right?
what the fuck is wrong with these people?
don’t bother answering, I already know…
The fountains mingle with the river
And the rivers with the ocean
The winds of heaven mix for ever
With a sweet emotion;
Nothing in the world is single,
All things by a law divine
In one another’s being mingle
Why not I with thine?
See the mountains kiss high heaven
And the waves clasp one another
No sister-flower would be forgiven
If it disdain’d its brother;
And the sunlight clasps the earth,
And the moonbeams kiss the sea
What are all these kisses worth
If thou kiss not me?
– Percy Bysshe Shelley
Wave at sunset.
In a world full of madness, the ocean always calms me; and for those moments, I can forget all of man’s injustices to his fellow man… – Dormis Aeternitas©
Limited minds, no matter how intelligent, lock out higher levels of consciousness. If an individual tries to understand through his rational processes that which is larger than his reason, he will limit himself by his own definition of infinity.
– Alan Oken, author “As Above, So Below”